And so. I need to vent. Not really, i am just really fed up with the music program here. And its totally my fault because i don't want to be a music major anymore. Of course, as you all probably know, its a monday because thats the only day i really complain about music because thats the day that i bend over and let UWm fuck me in the ass...not to be vulgar or anything.
Well anyways, i told professor colburn about it, surprisingly. And he didn't take it too hard. Although, he did dismiss me right when my lesson was over inst3ead of the usual 20 min overdue. Which was nice. Anyways, the only thing holding me in to the music thing is my scholarship which i don't even know is worth it. Which is sad. Ill keep you posted.
Other than that, my Thanksgiving weekend was nothing short of Awesome. :). As always, i love to see my family and le them know what im up to. Althought i was kind of disapointed in the selection of dishes this year. But all the food was bomb so i will get over the fact that we didn't even have corn at Thanksgiving.
Also. Got my fake ID this weekend which i proceeded on to use to get into judges but it wasnt like amazing. yeah i got in a bar. Yeah im not 21. And yeah the creepiest people ever hang out there. But whatever. I got into a bar and thats all that matters. You gotta start at the bottom.
And now i am about to go waste two hundred dollars on Christmas shopping!!! Whooooo see yah later:)
Monday, November 26, 2007
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Thanksgiving Week.
Oh My Goodness. Im so sorry about not writing. I really have no valid excuse for neglecting this blog other than midterms which is only a partial excuse. Even though i have no other readers other than Ben, im sure the readers i almost had were quite disappointed when i didn't post for ever. Ok anyways...back to what's new in my life.
I feel very pressured right now to make a lot of life changing decisions. Like about my career. It's so hard not to think about it, after all that's why i'm in college, isn't it? But then again, I AM only a freshman. All the members of PRSSA keep telling me that when they were freshman, they were just thinking about college and dorming and drinking and whatnot. Which i do think abotu occassionally minus the dorming but still....
Which brings me to another thing i am worried about. My living situation next year. Yeah i have a while to think about it, but i don't want to end up scrambling to find someone next year. I want to live closer to school and have my own room. That shouldn't be too hard to ask, but the trick is finding the right person. Until you have been in college or had to live with someone else thats not related, you wouldn't believe all the problems roommates can have...ugh.
Although my roommates are actually quite good now...probably because i had a nervous breakdown a few weeks ago, which i realize may not have happened if i was writing all of my problems down in this blog. Yeah. i know.
New Subject. Graeme and i are doing alright. We just had our one year anniversary on Saturday and we went to Chicago. We went to the field Museum, the Art Museum, and the Shedd Aquarium. And it was lovely. I was actually so tired by the Shedd Aquarium that i took a 20 minute nap while waiting for the dolphin show to begin, but that actually ended up being one of my favorite parts of the whole day:).
Well enough about the updates, and time to start talking about the here and now.
I have found that the week of Thanksgiving has been one of the longest weeks of my entire life. Yesterday i was sitting through a fifty minute lecture and it seemed to take 3 hours. Boo. Also, i found that i have been feeling very lethargic lately...because all i can think about is turkey. And the cute outfit im wearing to my family get together. MMM MMM GOOD:).
I actually miss my family more than they know...especially my brother. Thinking about what to buy everyone for Christmas has made me think about each person individually and just miss them entirely. I have no idea what to get for my bro but im sure ill figure it out within the next two weeks.
Oh Christmas.
I feel very pressured right now to make a lot of life changing decisions. Like about my career. It's so hard not to think about it, after all that's why i'm in college, isn't it? But then again, I AM only a freshman. All the members of PRSSA keep telling me that when they were freshman, they were just thinking about college and dorming and drinking and whatnot. Which i do think abotu occassionally minus the dorming but still....
Which brings me to another thing i am worried about. My living situation next year. Yeah i have a while to think about it, but i don't want to end up scrambling to find someone next year. I want to live closer to school and have my own room. That shouldn't be too hard to ask, but the trick is finding the right person. Until you have been in college or had to live with someone else thats not related, you wouldn't believe all the problems roommates can have...ugh.
Although my roommates are actually quite good now...probably because i had a nervous breakdown a few weeks ago, which i realize may not have happened if i was writing all of my problems down in this blog. Yeah. i know.
New Subject. Graeme and i are doing alright. We just had our one year anniversary on Saturday and we went to Chicago. We went to the field Museum, the Art Museum, and the Shedd Aquarium. And it was lovely. I was actually so tired by the Shedd Aquarium that i took a 20 minute nap while waiting for the dolphin show to begin, but that actually ended up being one of my favorite parts of the whole day:).
Well enough about the updates, and time to start talking about the here and now.
I have found that the week of Thanksgiving has been one of the longest weeks of my entire life. Yesterday i was sitting through a fifty minute lecture and it seemed to take 3 hours. Boo. Also, i found that i have been feeling very lethargic lately...because all i can think about is turkey. And the cute outfit im wearing to my family get together. MMM MMM GOOD:).
I actually miss my family more than they know...especially my brother. Thinking about what to buy everyone for Christmas has made me think about each person individually and just miss them entirely. I have no idea what to get for my bro but im sure ill figure it out within the next two weeks.
Oh Christmas.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Study guide....
Chapter 5
Interpersonal competence- consistently communicating in ways that meet three criteria. Appropriateness - communication follows accepted norms. Effectiveness - enables you to achieve your goals. ethics - communication treats people fairly.
appropriateness - the degree to which your communication matches situational, relational, and cultural expectations regarding how people should communicate.
high self moniter - people who are highly sensitive to appropriateness and adapt their communication accordingly.
Low self moniter - are not sensitive to appropriateness, communicate the same way no matter what the situation.
effectiveness - the ability to use communication to accomplish interpersonal goals.
Self presentational goals - represent desire for others to perceive you as a certain kind of person.
Instrumental goals - the practical things you want to achieve in a particular situation.
relational goals - the connections you want to cultivate with your communication partners.
Interpersonal ethics -a set of standards regarding moral behavior. avoid intentionally hurting others through our communication.
Expressive messages - convey what you think and feel so that others know what you think and feel.
Conventional messages - emphasize the achievement of instrumental goals in a situation.
Rhetorical messages - signal an attempt to answer the question "How can i best talk about this situation so that the problems we're facing are solved?
communication apprehension - fear or anxiety associated with real or anticipated communication with another person or persons.
Trait communication apprehension - enduring tendency to experience frear and anxiety with all communication.
Context communication apprehension - apprehension to communication in a certain type of situation.
Receiver communication apprehension - fear and anxiety consistently experienced during communication with a particular type of person or group.
Temporary communication apprehension - spontane=eous short term experience of fear and anxiety regarding communication with a particular person or group. triggered by an inerpersonal event that causes a person to become briefly apprehensive about communicating.
Communication plans - mental maps that describe exactly how communication encounters will unfold prior to interacting in the situation or with the person or types of people who cause your communication apprehension.
1) Plan actions - the moves you think you'll perform in an encounter that causes you anxiety.
2) plan contingencies - the messages you think your communication partner or partners will say during the encounter and how you will respond.
shyness - tendency to be timid and reserved and to talk less when in the presence of others.
lonliness - feelings of social isolation and lack of companionship. Also associated with communication shortcomings.
Defensive communication - incompetent messages delivered in response to suggestions criticism or perceived slights. People rudely dismiss the validity of what another person has just said. refuse to make internal attributions about their own behavior.
1) dogmatic messages- a person dismisses suggestions for improvement or constructive criticism, refuses to consider other views and continues to believ that his or her behaviors are acceptable.
2) superiority messages - the speaker suggests that he or she possesses special knowledge, ability, or status far beyond that of the other
Interpersonal competence- consistently communicating in ways that meet three criteria. Appropriateness - communication follows accepted norms. Effectiveness - enables you to achieve your goals. ethics - communication treats people fairly.
appropriateness - the degree to which your communication matches situational, relational, and cultural expectations regarding how people should communicate.
high self moniter - people who are highly sensitive to appropriateness and adapt their communication accordingly.
Low self moniter - are not sensitive to appropriateness, communicate the same way no matter what the situation.
effectiveness - the ability to use communication to accomplish interpersonal goals.
Self presentational goals - represent desire for others to perceive you as a certain kind of person.
Instrumental goals - the practical things you want to achieve in a particular situation.
relational goals - the connections you want to cultivate with your communication partners.
Interpersonal ethics -a set of standards regarding moral behavior. avoid intentionally hurting others through our communication.
Expressive messages - convey what you think and feel so that others know what you think and feel.
Conventional messages - emphasize the achievement of instrumental goals in a situation.
Rhetorical messages - signal an attempt to answer the question "How can i best talk about this situation so that the problems we're facing are solved?
communication apprehension - fear or anxiety associated with real or anticipated communication with another person or persons.
Trait communication apprehension - enduring tendency to experience frear and anxiety with all communication.
Context communication apprehension - apprehension to communication in a certain type of situation.
Receiver communication apprehension - fear and anxiety consistently experienced during communication with a particular type of person or group.
Temporary communication apprehension - spontane=eous short term experience of fear and anxiety regarding communication with a particular person or group. triggered by an inerpersonal event that causes a person to become briefly apprehensive about communicating.
Communication plans - mental maps that describe exactly how communication encounters will unfold prior to interacting in the situation or with the person or types of people who cause your communication apprehension.
1) Plan actions - the moves you think you'll perform in an encounter that causes you anxiety.
2) plan contingencies - the messages you think your communication partner or partners will say during the encounter and how you will respond.
shyness - tendency to be timid and reserved and to talk less when in the presence of others.
lonliness - feelings of social isolation and lack of companionship. Also associated with communication shortcomings.
Defensive communication - incompetent messages delivered in response to suggestions criticism or perceived slights. People rudely dismiss the validity of what another person has just said. refuse to make internal attributions about their own behavior.
1) dogmatic messages- a person dismisses suggestions for improvement or constructive criticism, refuses to consider other views and continues to believ that his or her behaviors are acceptable.
2) superiority messages - the speaker suggests that he or she possesses special knowledge, ability, or status far beyond that of the other
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Thursday, November 8, 2007
I got robbed and midterms suck. Here is my weekend.
And so...first of all im sorry i havent been writing lately. My life is super busy with midterms. And other stuff. But i do have a fun story.
Sat. 4:00 Traveled the 68 to work...was late.
Sat. 7:30 Realized that work sucked because i was not making that much money.
Sat. 11:54 Realized that work sucked because i was going to have to close.
Sat. 12:45 Finished work and only walked out with $92.00.
Sat. 12:47 Got home and went to bed
Sat. 1:01 Got a call from the Mequon police informing me that earlier today on the 68 bus route, a man had taken my wallet from my purse. Appparently he had a warrent out for his arrest and they had caught him. He had my wallet on him.
Sat. 1:09 Got a call from my father who was apparently awoken because the police called him before they called me.
Sat. 1:30 Went to bed...and thanked God.
Sun. 10:30 Went to church with my parents.
Sun. 12:03 Went to lunch with my parents.
Sun. 1:07 Went to the store with my parents. And they bought me stuff:)
Sun. 3:00 Got home where my parents proceeded to vaccum and unclog my toilet:).
Sun. 4:00 Went to work.
Sun. 5:30 Realized i was going to make just as much or more than on Saturday.
Sun. 9:45 Got out of work and made more than on Saturday.
Sun. !0:10 Got a ride home from Elissa and proceeded on to hang out with her.
Sun. 11:07 Went to bed.
Mon. 6:30 Almost woke up.
Mon. 6:45 Woke up and worked out.
Mon. 7:15 Finished working out.
Mon. 7:18 Got into the shower 3 minutes earlier than kayla. Yes!!
Mon. 8:21 Caught the bus to school.
Mon. 9:05 Went to the bank to get new debit cards and walked out with a new debit card and a new credit card.
Mon. 9:35 Got to school.
Mon. 3:36 Called professor Coulburn to reschedule the lesson for Tuesday because i was..cough cough...sick.
Mon. 4:02 Started to hang out with Pooh...new nickname for Graeme..lol. Really should have been working on that paper that is due Wednesday. yes the wedenesday two days from today.
Mon. 9:46 Went to bed because Pooh was tired.
Teus. 6:30 Woke up and cleaned the house.
Teus. 7:30 Went to school so i could study for that math quiz.
Teus. 10:01 Did fucking awesome on that math quiz.
Tues. 10:12 Left math early because despite my ridiculously hot math professor, the class was ridiculously boring.
Teus. 11:00 Did fucking awesome at my rescheduled lesson.
Tues. 2:20 Decided to skip lecture otherwise i would be late for work.
Teus. 3:03 Got home and got ready for work.
Teus. 4:15 Went to the library to get "Remember the Titans" because i needed it for the paper i was writing. That was due tomorrow.
Teus. 4"17 Found out that "Remember the Titans" was "missing".
Teus. 4:25 Caught the bus to Bayshore.
Teus. 4:27 Decided to buy Remember the Titans from Barnes and Noble.
Teus. 4:43 Found out that Barnes and Noble was all out of Remember the Titans.
Teus. 4:44 Panicked.
Tues. 4:53 Went to Hollywood video in hopes that they would have it.
Teus. 4:54 Relieved that they had it.
Teus. 4:55 Decided to open an account.
Teus. 4:56 Found out i would need a credit card.
Tues. 4:56 Panicked.
Teus. 4:57 Nice movie man told me to bring in the card next time i came in.
Teus. 4:58 Told me that the movie would cost a dollar fifty eight.
Teus. 4:58 Realized i didn't have a dollar fifty eight.
Teus. 4:58 Panicked.
Teus. 5:01 Nice Movie man lets me walk out of Hollywood video...with Remember the titans in my bag.
Tues. 5:30 Got to work. Regretted skipping lecture. Learned we had a test next Tues. Thanks Alissa:).
Tues. 11:00 Got out of work. Awesome closing team.
Tues. 11:21 Start writing my paper.
Teus. 12:23 Went to bed.
Wed. 10:10 Board bus to school.
Wed. 10:45 Print off paper.
Wed. 11:02 Realize that i am late for class.
Wed. 11:05 Turn paper in late.
Wed. 6:00 Go to PRSSA Meeting.
Wed. 7:03 Go to Sexpo. An exposition showing various sex toys and how to use them.
Wed. 10:43 Get home and go to bed.
Thurs. 9:46 wake up and write this blog.
Thurs. 9:46 Stop procrastinating and get my lazy ass up.
Sat. 4:00 Traveled the 68 to work...was late.
Sat. 7:30 Realized that work sucked because i was not making that much money.
Sat. 11:54 Realized that work sucked because i was going to have to close.
Sat. 12:45 Finished work and only walked out with $92.00.
Sat. 12:47 Got home and went to bed
Sat. 1:01 Got a call from the Mequon police informing me that earlier today on the 68 bus route, a man had taken my wallet from my purse. Appparently he had a warrent out for his arrest and they had caught him. He had my wallet on him.
Sat. 1:09 Got a call from my father who was apparently awoken because the police called him before they called me.
Sat. 1:30 Went to bed...and thanked God.
Sun. 10:30 Went to church with my parents.
Sun. 12:03 Went to lunch with my parents.
Sun. 1:07 Went to the store with my parents. And they bought me stuff:)
Sun. 3:00 Got home where my parents proceeded to vaccum and unclog my toilet:).
Sun. 4:00 Went to work.
Sun. 5:30 Realized i was going to make just as much or more than on Saturday.
Sun. 9:45 Got out of work and made more than on Saturday.
Sun. !0:10 Got a ride home from Elissa and proceeded on to hang out with her.
Sun. 11:07 Went to bed.
Mon. 6:30 Almost woke up.
Mon. 6:45 Woke up and worked out.
Mon. 7:15 Finished working out.
Mon. 7:18 Got into the shower 3 minutes earlier than kayla. Yes!!
Mon. 8:21 Caught the bus to school.
Mon. 9:05 Went to the bank to get new debit cards and walked out with a new debit card and a new credit card.
Mon. 9:35 Got to school.
Mon. 3:36 Called professor Coulburn to reschedule the lesson for Tuesday because i was..cough cough...sick.
Mon. 4:02 Started to hang out with Pooh...new nickname for Graeme..lol. Really should have been working on that paper that is due Wednesday. yes the wedenesday two days from today.
Mon. 9:46 Went to bed because Pooh was tired.
Teus. 6:30 Woke up and cleaned the house.
Teus. 7:30 Went to school so i could study for that math quiz.
Teus. 10:01 Did fucking awesome on that math quiz.
Tues. 10:12 Left math early because despite my ridiculously hot math professor, the class was ridiculously boring.
Teus. 11:00 Did fucking awesome at my rescheduled lesson.
Tues. 2:20 Decided to skip lecture otherwise i would be late for work.
Teus. 3:03 Got home and got ready for work.
Teus. 4:15 Went to the library to get "Remember the Titans" because i needed it for the paper i was writing. That was due tomorrow.
Teus. 4"17 Found out that "Remember the Titans" was "missing".
Teus. 4:25 Caught the bus to Bayshore.
Teus. 4:27 Decided to buy Remember the Titans from Barnes and Noble.
Teus. 4:43 Found out that Barnes and Noble was all out of Remember the Titans.
Teus. 4:44 Panicked.
Tues. 4:53 Went to Hollywood video in hopes that they would have it.
Teus. 4:54 Relieved that they had it.
Teus. 4:55 Decided to open an account.
Teus. 4:56 Found out i would need a credit card.
Tues. 4:56 Panicked.
Teus. 4:57 Nice movie man told me to bring in the card next time i came in.
Teus. 4:58 Told me that the movie would cost a dollar fifty eight.
Teus. 4:58 Realized i didn't have a dollar fifty eight.
Teus. 4:58 Panicked.
Teus. 5:01 Nice Movie man lets me walk out of Hollywood video...with Remember the titans in my bag.
Tues. 5:30 Got to work. Regretted skipping lecture. Learned we had a test next Tues. Thanks Alissa:).
Tues. 11:00 Got out of work. Awesome closing team.
Tues. 11:21 Start writing my paper.
Teus. 12:23 Went to bed.
Wed. 10:10 Board bus to school.
Wed. 10:45 Print off paper.
Wed. 11:02 Realize that i am late for class.
Wed. 11:05 Turn paper in late.
Wed. 6:00 Go to PRSSA Meeting.
Wed. 7:03 Go to Sexpo. An exposition showing various sex toys and how to use them.
Wed. 10:43 Get home and go to bed.
Thurs. 9:46 wake up and write this blog.
Thurs. 9:46 Stop procrastinating and get my lazy ass up.
Friday, November 2, 2007
Niiice
So i am totally typing this entry on my new macbook pro. Sweeeet. Right now..things with the roomies have calmed down i suppose you could say. They are still only selectively nice to me...and by selectively i mean when other people are around. Like i said before...its not like they're blatantly mean...just silently mean.
I mean it does make you feel like shit when you walk in a room and no one says shit. Act like your not there or something.
I started doing it only in response to how many times its been done to me.
And i suppose one could ask themselves, "is it really best to sink to that level of retaliation?? Doing to them what they're doing to you??"
The answer is...probably:)
But anyways...back to the mac.
I have come to realize that this machine is so much better than a PC, not only because it is a lot easier to use, but also because it is ten times sexier, brand new and all mine. I do, in fact realize that all of those reasons for my lap top being better than a PC are total crap, but whatev.
The only thing i have against mac right now is the fact that it comes with not many programs. I mean, you basically have to buy everything that you need....Microsoft office, Photo shop, Solitare. I mean really now...oh well...im workin on it.
Other than that...i totally love my mac!!
Maybe i should update on Graeme right now. He is sleeping next to me with a blanket over his head and breathing heavily. He is such a sweetie. We basically spent the whole day together...and he went grocery shopping with me and didnt complain. I was shocked. And that is why i am just letting him sleep right now. Of course i am a little bummed because every Friday i spend with him i end up sitting around the entire night in scrubs watching movies and going to bed at 9:00. Not exactly the college life ideal but i suppose i will get over it eventually. Its not like we spend every Friday together.
Other than that...he is totally good. I have been desperately searching google for good anniversary presents. I mean our one year is on November 19 and i am getting frantic. Although i did already buy a sweet Christmas present for him...did i mention what it was>>?? Packer tickets. Hell yeah.
So we might not even get each other anything for our anniversary. Which makes me sad. No love is not about presents and whatever...but it always feels better to get one. But he pulled the whole, "Well your forcing me to get you a present. I just wanted to spend the day in Chicago with you but thats not good enough for you." Honestly....what am i supposed to say to that. Hhhhhh i just wish i could have something nice thats all...
And thats really all i have on that...goodnight:)
I mean it does make you feel like shit when you walk in a room and no one says shit. Act like your not there or something.
I started doing it only in response to how many times its been done to me.
And i suppose one could ask themselves, "is it really best to sink to that level of retaliation?? Doing to them what they're doing to you??"
The answer is...probably:)
But anyways...back to the mac.
I have come to realize that this machine is so much better than a PC, not only because it is a lot easier to use, but also because it is ten times sexier, brand new and all mine. I do, in fact realize that all of those reasons for my lap top being better than a PC are total crap, but whatev.
The only thing i have against mac right now is the fact that it comes with not many programs. I mean, you basically have to buy everything that you need....Microsoft office, Photo shop, Solitare. I mean really now...oh well...im workin on it.
Other than that...i totally love my mac!!
Maybe i should update on Graeme right now. He is sleeping next to me with a blanket over his head and breathing heavily. He is such a sweetie. We basically spent the whole day together...and he went grocery shopping with me and didnt complain. I was shocked. And that is why i am just letting him sleep right now. Of course i am a little bummed because every Friday i spend with him i end up sitting around the entire night in scrubs watching movies and going to bed at 9:00. Not exactly the college life ideal but i suppose i will get over it eventually. Its not like we spend every Friday together.
Other than that...he is totally good. I have been desperately searching google for good anniversary presents. I mean our one year is on November 19 and i am getting frantic. Although i did already buy a sweet Christmas present for him...did i mention what it was>>?? Packer tickets. Hell yeah.
So we might not even get each other anything for our anniversary. Which makes me sad. No love is not about presents and whatever...but it always feels better to get one. But he pulled the whole, "Well your forcing me to get you a present. I just wanted to spend the day in Chicago with you but thats not good enough for you." Honestly....what am i supposed to say to that. Hhhhhh i just wish i could have something nice thats all...
And thats really all i have on that...goodnight:)
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Picking and Choosing
Don't you just hate those people who treat you in accordance with what mood they're in. If they're happy, everyone around them is allowed to be happy, but watch out if they feel like bitchin because they will probably take it out on you. Well im pretty sure that i live with two people like that and theyre names are Lauren and Kayla.
Living with them has been hell for the past week...but last night they decided to randomly be nice to me. They were making dinner and decided to include me...which actually shocked me. It was alright...i was kind of reserved until tim and Lucas got there. But yeah...i dont know where we're at right now...but apparently they're talking to me today.
Things could however all change tommorow...we shall see.
Living with them has been hell for the past week...but last night they decided to randomly be nice to me. They were making dinner and decided to include me...which actually shocked me. It was alright...i was kind of reserved until tim and Lucas got there. But yeah...i dont know where we're at right now...but apparently they're talking to me today.
Things could however all change tommorow...we shall see.
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