Engagement rings...ugh...

Thank God that the horrible week from hell is finally over. Right now im sitting in my nice warm house listening to the snowstorm and annoying plow outside. yay!! I was waiting on a call from Steph, but i don't think she's going to be calling me back tonight. I won't say im not surprised though...she'll probably call me tomorrow and say that she forgot. Really....im not that pissed off about it...but i AM pissed off about it at the same time. I mean..she told me she would call me back in half an hour...the least she could have done wast texted me to be like...hey going to sleep sorry...Ugh..oh well..

Speaking of Ugg. I definitely bought myself a 200 dollar pair of boots three days ago. But for the record..i fucking love em so i don't care...

Update on the music thing...I DO have to do juries. Which are on December 10. Whoo hoo. Thanks Professor Colburn for nothing!!!

And one final story which was probably the highlight of my day. By highlight i mean, it was the most eventful thing that happened...other than the concert which went well if you were wondering. Ok so back to my story.

Graeme and i have talked about marriage a couple of times and are both in agreement that we would like to eventually end up together in the end. Not that abnormal..whatever. So in doing so, and being a girl, i obviously speculate about other things that might effect that day while we talk about them. Sometimes its flower choice, what style dress i want...but most of the time i end up thinking about the ring im going to get.

I told him a long time ago that i wanted a ring from Tiffany's and not knowing what the H e double hockey sticks that was...said yes. Later he came up to me and told me that the rings were way to expensive and there's absolutely no way that i'm going to get one. I didn't really believe him on the expensive thing..because when he looks on the internet for prices it usually ends up being way more than he says its going to be...so i looked on the Tiffany's website today for the first time to check out the rings.

Of course i found some cheaper ones...and the one i want is about 3000. Now really, is that unreasonable at ALL??? I was all excited about this of course and texted Graeme to tell him that the ring i wanted was only 3000. I mean...i was excited:)

So than he calls me back and we kind of get into this argument...because i keep talking about the ring..and then he tells me that that's a lot of money. Which it is...but not for an engagement ring... He pretty much called me materialistic and fuck if im not on my period...but i was a little pissed off. I mean...i feel like he's telling me he's just going to lay low and buy me a ring from a cheaper jewler.....but that's not what i want.

Ugh...i can't really explain why i absolutely NEED a tiffany's engagement ring...but i just do. I mean really...i just love how they look....they're gorgeous. Is it really too much to ask??? Of course he's worried about the money...but i think it's because he wants to save up for a down payment and stuff like that...oh idk what to tell him...he keeps saying things like...well ill just have to take out a loan...making me feel all guilty about wanting that ring and everything..:( And than i feel like i shouldn't expect something like that.

Which is where i'm confused. AM i being a bitch for wanting a ring from Tiffany's??? He is very apprehensive about the whole ring business because of Goddamn fucking kim. I'm sorry but i really hate her sometimes because she ruined a lot of things for Graeme. I know that when he buys that ring...if we even get that far and whatever ring he gets, he'll just be upset because of the money he spent..and should be saving. Because he doesn't want me to give it back to him and blah blah blah. Ugh...i hate this...the more i think about it, the more it bothers me. Just because...he doesn't want to spend money on that ring...which...sucks.

Can i just say, that i don't NEED Graeme to buy me things. For dinner i usually offer to pay at least something and we are usually half and half on the spending. But....every girl wants flowers once in a while...and the only time he buys me them is when i give him HUGE hints. I pretty much have to tell him to buy me flowers.....which i know is typical for a guy...but ugh.

The only thing he really surprises me with when it comes to those things are things that he wants...like a DVD player and stuff like that. IDK..sorry but i don't have time to really watch movies...so....im probably not going to use it. I hate when shit like this gets in the way of the relationship...but i just know that im willing to spend so much money to make him happy...and i just wish that i could have that in return once in a while....without complaining...because that just makes me feel like shit.

I know he's so tight on money right now...and its not fair for me to demand things of him. But i remember when he used to surprise me with my favorite chocolates or random things like that....now i don't think he even remembers what my favorite chocolate is anymore...:(

Like i said...im on my period and am probably being very irrational...but hey...isn't that what blogs are for??